In the interest of being authentic and transparent, here’s what I’ve been dealing with the last few days: I’ve been fighting these crazy negative thoughts that say ‘You’re a fake, you’re a fraud, you don’t know what you’re doing’, all in relation to being a successful builder and team leader with my dōTERRA Essential Oil business.
Do I have it all figured out? No. Am I totally organized and do I have everything dialed in? No, not like I think or feel that ‘I should’… ah, guilt! And with the annual Convention next week in Salt Lake City, there is some anxiety and stress involved with all of that, including packing, flying, and having about 40 team members there, many of them attending for the first time. Talk about upper limiting! (From the book The Big Leap). Any time you are about to break through to a new level of success in your life, your ‘thermostat’ or emotional comfort level, will try to prevent you from moving forward, and it can manifest itself with uncomfortable physical or emotional symptoms.
A couple of days ago I woke up with swollen lymph nodes on the sides of my neck, below my ears… and a rash behind my ears. Bingo!
In the book ‘Feelings Buried Alive Never Die’, under the ‘dis-ease’ listing of Lymph System, one of the feelings associated with the lymphatic system is ‘Negative thoughts against yourself’. Wow! Absolutely true. Once I figured out the emotional reason behind the physical effects, I needed to figure out how I could work through this and get back to normal.
I scanned myself with my Itovi, and started using the oils, of course, but I needed to do the emotional work. I needed to address the negative thoughts, or they would just keep coming back. Yesterday those thoughts hit me again, and instead of believing them, and hoping no one else on my team would figure it out (that I’m really a fake & fraud), I challenged those thoughts. I asked myself: ‘Is that really true? Are you a fake and a fraud? Do you know what you’re doing in this business? Is there any evidence to support these negative thoughts? Once I did this, and really started thinking about it, there was no evidence to support these absurd, fear-based thoughts, and they gradually started subsiding… and I started feeling a little better.
Today the swelling in my lymph nodes has gone down some, and I’ve turned it around on the negative thoughts. I am not a fake or a fraud. This business is real, and I do know what I’m doing, so far anyway, and I trust that I can learn what I need to, when I need to learn it, to continue to be a successful builder and leader, and to support my team the best way I know how.
This is part of the ongoing emotional journey we all are on, and I know it’s a lot of personal info, but it’s my truth, and I own it. I’m grateful for the tools I have to work through this stuff, and I hope this info is helpful to you in some way.